My God.

So I am once again going to be vulnerable and transparent with you who read this.

(I believe we are all called to do that read James 5:13-20)

Those of you that live around me may know that recently I have been challenged with the concept of 

Sabbath.

This is not just a day of rest but a day spent with and around

God.

Not family, friends, or homework.

Yes I think you can do your sabbath around your family and friends but if that's what the day is about that is incorrect.

I have been spending my weeks looking forward to my 

Sabbath,

since I have changed my view on this Holy Day.

I try and go out in the wilderness as much as possible it's at least once a week if not three times.

I think I have gotten the best time with God out in the

WILD. 

During my time with God yesterday I sat on the hood of my Jeep on top of a hill back where no one was. 

In amazement I just started to realize how just 

AMAZING

my King is.

(Amazing- filled with astonishment.)

This is what I came to semi-understand and hopefully never fully grasp so 

God's 

Amazing-ness never fades away.

No matter how much I explore these woods,

There are still parts of  it I will not know.

From Dirt to Snow,

Water to Trees,

Mountains to Valleys,

Open Fields to Rocky Hills,

Green Pines to Blue Skies & White Fluffy Clouds,

Fallen Timbers to Thick Patches of Saplings,

Cold of the Night to Heat of the Day,

Swarms of Mosquitoes to Butterfly dusted Poppies,

Ducks to Deers

Flower filled Hills to Barin Lands

Dirty Back Roads of Mud & Clay to Green Pastures

Elk to Cougars.

Little Streams of Melted Snow to Lakes.

I will never understand You or know every area of You, no matter how often and far I explore. 

There is always more to discover.

God let me never stop seeking adventure in the world You created and in Who You are.

There is a cabin in this photo, I kinda wanna live there.

 

This is where I sat watching the clouds shadows move across the forest and got an awesome time on the top of the Jeep : ) 

 

 

I LOVE the fact that I will never fully comprehend God and understand the reasons for the things He does but it makes Life so much more exciting and more like a

CRAZY Adventure!

Where are you looking?

Everyone on this beautiful planet has issues.

Yes even you.

They have stuff they hold onto,

for SO many different reasons.

My Pastor has been challenging me to let GO!

I have baggage just like everyone else, which makes this hike even harder.

Life is like a very hard, beautiful, and rewarding hike in my eyes. 

Adventure around every corner(some times you need to open your eyes to it) and it gets intense sometimes.
You need your community to help encourage and push you through it and other times you are that encourager for others needing help on this hike.

On a hike you bring only the necessities not a duffel bag of useless items that just

make the hike that much harder!

That's what this baggage is in life, unnecessary items that you want to bring along for some weird, and sometimes twisted, reason.
You know they exist and don't want them but you don't 

want to let go cause then there is nothing to blame for your struggle but

the things that you need to fix or get rid of in your life.
The fault is on YOU.
Even if you were not the one to cause the event.

I took some pictures today that may help a little with illustrating how you look at life.

You are looking at the past in your mirror and around you as well but...

that's not enough you can't see where your stepping, you will fall

you will blame it on something in the past that caused you to fall this way.

Or
You are too busy looking at how dirty you are and what you have done in the past to even let your eyes be on the present or future.  

You ask yourself "how can life even go on normally, I have messed up too much, for any human or even God to love me."

You are too focused on yourself.

And then there is the mindset of trying to look into the future but its really blurry.

You look into the past but someone has really done something to hurt you. 

So life looks messy and confusing and extremely hard to even go anywhere you can't

look back or forward. 

You are damaged.

It probably wasn't your fault but for some reason you can't let go of it or that person that hurt you.

LIFE IS JUST TO MESSY.

Why am I talking about this?
Is there hope for us dirty, selfish, and dwellers of the past?

I say YES!
Yes there is indeed!
God tells us to draw near to Him and He will draw near to you.

The best way I know how to draw near to Him is to explore and get to know who He is...
how do I do that?
I explore His WILD side : D
 Look at Him and He will put you where you need to be and heal the past.
This isn't always easy,
sometimes the hurt you have had
(caused by you or someone else)
has closed but there is bad stuff underneath,
meaning it has to be reopened to finally clean and heal correctly.

There should be no mirror except for the one you look in to see if you look like Christ.
If you don't look like Him keep asking Him to change that,
then be ready.
Ready to start the healing
and
LIVING.

Leave your bags and luggage at your temporary home
and
live with passion and vigor to fight to get to the top of the mountain.

Leave it at His feet and depend on Him and only
HIM
to fix it.

There is a lot more levels to this whole concept that I do not know/understand.
If you have questions about what I said feel free to ask me!